Title: DeadAlive 5-I Believe  Author: Soleil Compeau 
Summary: It's about hope, and carrying on, and resolutions made. 
Category: Vignette 
Keywords: M&S friendship Character death 
Rating: PG 
Disclaimer: These characters do not belong to me. They are the property 
of Chris Carter, 1013 Productions, and the Fox Network. Lyrics from Bon 
Jovi's "I Believe" also used without permission. No copyright 
infringement is intended.  
Author's Notes: I've finally made it to the end of this thing. I hope 
you're all still with me, and that you enjoyed the ride. 
Naked!Mulders for anyone who tells me what they think of these 
vignettes! 
 
 
 
She looked with amused tolerance at the big screen TV. Bon Jovi was 
preparing to take the stage on Dick Clark's Rockin' New Year's Eve 2001. 
She had thought Bon Jovi's popularity had ended when the '80's had, but 
they were making a dubious comeback. Lead singer JonBon strutted to the 
microphone and looked soulfully into the camera before beginning to sing. 
 
All I know is what I've been sold 
You can read my life like a fortune told 
I've seen the dream, there's no land of Oz 
But I got my brain and I got a heart 
And courage built I won't let go 
What we need right now is...soul 
 
I can't do this, you can't do that 
They feed us lines but I won't act 
And all good things will come to pass 
But the truth is all you have to have 
And would you lie for it? 
(Do you) cry for it? 
(Would you) die for it? 
Would you 
 
I believe, I believe 
With every breath that I breathe 
You and me can turn a whisper to a scream 
I believe, I believe 
 
You gave it all, then you gave more 
You know what you came here for 
You'll pay the cost, like its your cross to bear 
Are we the ones who put it there 
Would you scheme for it, scream for it, bleed for it, 
Would you 
 
I believe, I believe 
Believe we're still worth 
The fight you'll see 
There's hope for this world tonight 
I believe, I believe 
 
Don't look up on your movie screens 
In record stores or magazines 
Close your eyes and you will see 
That you are all you really need 
 
I believe, I believe 
With every breath that I breathe 
You and me, can turn a whisper to a scream 
I believe, I believe 
 
Dana Scully had always been one to follow the rules. Sure, there had been 
acts of rebellion here and there. In high school she had pierced her 
belly button, smoked, and drank. During medical school she had carried 
on 
with a married man, then allowed herself to be recruited by the FBI. Yet 
another deviation from the rules had been her affair with her instructor 
Jack. Then she met Mulder...well, Mulder had been the biggest rebellion 
of all. Instead of selling him out, she had joined his crusade. 
 
But for all that, Scully generally behaved herself. She found that she 
liked the restraint of rules and regulations. She got a sense of 
satisfaction from obeying orders. Mulder, the aforementioned cause of her 
biggest break with authority, had never been interested in orders. Only 
the truth. 
 
Scully reflected on their desk job punishment under AD Kersh. The X-
Files 
reopened and given to another agent who thumbed his nose at them 
constantly. Their own relationship at its lowest ebb due to Agent 
Fowley's machinations. Still, Mulder had not been deterred. He had 
remained dedicated to the truth, no matter the cost. Even through his 
partner tagging along and doubting, criticizing, arguing. 
 
He had told her once that she made him a whole person, that her "strict 
rationalism and science" had saved him. Well. She had felt at times that 
she *was* holding him back. But when all was said and done the fact 
remained that they were a team. Each was made stronger by the other. 
 
Nevertheless, Scully had to carry on...alone. No, not really alone, she 
amended as her ample belly shifted. Thanks to Mulder's precious gift to 
her she would never really be without him. No, not alone, she thought as 
she glanced at the men on either side of her. 
 
Agent Doggett and AD Skinner had been reluctant to bring her to this 
place. She insisted on it, telling them she wanted a bit of normalcy. 
Wincing inside even as she said it, but knowing these men did not know of 
her battles with Mulder over what constituted "normal." So gaily to the 
neighborhood pub they had traipsed. Hoo Rah. Scully almost burst out 
laughing at the twin looks of dismay on their faces when she waltzed up 
to the bar and placed her order. 
 
She raised her glass of diet soda as the countdown began. To you Mulder, 
she toasted silently. In the starlight or in the ground, wherever you 
are, here's to you. For I have come full circle on this strange road 
walked by your side. For now I, too, believe. I will carry on for BOTH of 
us, and for this new life I cradle. 
 
I believe. 
 
End